Retro active

There are these times when your life comes to these certain phases that people generally dub as the "CROSSROADS" , well in a way it is a pretty accurate description of the whole thing and then what happens is life just takes a turn generally where the flow goes and voila! before you actually realise it you're there .Detaching people from yourself and your world is an important thing that unfortunately has to be done and well it does take a toll , yeah it is easy to distract the nosy idiots who keep bumming you all the time and get them off your case but it is hard to do this to the ones you've attached yourself to , and then you set out to balance things in your life in the back of your mind you want things to be as they were but you know those things can't be re done so then you go about trying to make the environment around you the way your previous one was and then in the process it becomes somethng new a part of which you like and a part which you do not sometimes you hate the past and like the present some times you hate both but either ways its something we need to come to terms with and accept and keep going through it take each day as it comes I've been through this like 6 times so far and am still going through it i've been happy sad humiliated loved heartbroken and a whole lotta things but then again Take each day as it comes...

randomness

ever noticed the number of things that pass through your mind when you just sit down to think sometimes? its amazing the speed at which your mind quickly looks up at all the things you did in the past and all the things you plan to do in the future .I went into one of those phases today afternoon and it lasted for an amazingly long time , it all started with what i did last week a person that i had spoken to over chat , this person was a great friend of mine had a lot of fun times together and there the very thought of this guy sent me sripalling down into a memory lane , it was amazing the detail with which every freak accident that occurred involving him and me flashed by before my eyes as if it just happened sometime back , to an extent that i could remember every little word he said , it was an amazing thing something that made me feel happy and seriously got me through the remaining half of the day , so dude AK and the others MH and PV , a big shout to u all man , u guys will always be a part of my life

Then and now...

Was passing by college the other day and suddenly went nostalgic, was thinking about a lot of things which came to my head all at once , the friends , the best friends who lost touch and then the ones who never called and blah blah blah but what hit me HARD was the memory of my first gig. I miss my band now that its done and i guess thats the part which drives me mad these days .Anyways let me get started on that , Microtone was formed way back in 2003 the first members were anupam and me and then came neehar and himank completing a line-up that would later many fights and bad gigs later become one of the biggest alternative acts this city had ever seen playing a shit load of gigs in different cities wining the big competitions and churning out great music, i liked what we did , we never cared about a metal dominated music scene , we were always the under dogs , we played stuff that either no one liked or no one knew and we loved it we had vocalists walk in and out but the soul of the whole thing lay in the four of us i still remember the first show we played for our college which was a major disaster but wat the hell it was a first gig and i still remember it like it happened jus today morning,The last show we played as a band and the original lineup at 6th element was brilliant we were calm composed sad happy all of us sang we played and man that was awesome felt like one brilliant way to end the whole show , was talking to my band mate today and jus then realised what a big thing the four of us had done in the past 4 years insignificant as it might seem to anyone else we are fuckin proud of what we did , it always was a collective force no matter how bad things got it was wat thatt held us together , from making jack ass music to stuff that would eventually become a crowd favorite it was awesome the jorney is awesome , still remember the first jam when we were excited and the the last one which was a bummer , music flowed all through , weird ideas locked in each ones head , relationships , parents , events , happenings , people , studies , spirituality all influencing us either all at once or in permetuations at all times music was our outlet , w did a good job of it , we never tried to be someone else we were who we wanted ourselves to be ,we lived every college goers fantasy. It really sickens me now , the thought that i'l soon be caught up in some work , i'm gonna have no tme for anything and anyone life's gonna be bad , tangled up and the one day i might jus put on my tv set watch a good video of some band playing and then look out the window and think to myself "SHIT ! i actually was in a great rock n roll band"!